During the week, I started reading an interesting book by Dale Carnegie. It’s one of those sweet reads you can’t help but make notes of what you’re intellectually savouring. I read the opening words, the first 3 chapters of part 1 and got to a page where he included a letter. It was an e-book, so this particular spot appeared with only signs. I needed to read everything… miss nothing!
I remembered the link from where I had downloaded, thinking I had wrongly downloaded. I went back, downloaded a new copy, scrolled to the page where I was, and lo, the same thing. Then it dawned on me that perhaps that is how the e-book is. Here was I with two copies of the same book. I obviously didn’t want to keep the two, so, I quickly thought to delete one – likely the last download. I hit the delete button. I was left with one copy. When I opened, my head ticked: “Check your notes”. I hurriedly checked and as I feared, I had rather deleted the earlier copy where I had all my notes. I felt like dashing my phone to the wall, slapping myself… but none of these could or would help.
If I wanted those notes, there was only one way out – start all over.
I had already gone into the 65th page or so. How on earth was I supposed to read all that again? Besides, was it even necessary? I could choose to just continue the read, but that will mean I have no notes for the previous part of my read. If I need what I believe I need, then I must start all over.
A couple of days earlier, same thing almost happened when trying to complete an online transaction. The page went out when I had not completed payment. I tried to refresh, the network was bad, and when it did refresh, it returned to scratch. I had to start over.
I dread starting all over. I guess I’m not the only one in these shoes. But the truth remains that sometimes life calls us to start all over, start from scratch.
Had I found notes for chapter 1 and 2, it would have been easier for me; but there was nothing. Had I saved some of the details to fill in for my online transaction, I could have picked up some bricks and continued building, but everything was wiped out. I had to research all the details, gather them anew, input them anew and complete the transaction.
This happens all too often in our lives, in school with courses taken and failed, with relationships that suddenly hit rock bottom, with parents and loved ones who depart this world… these and many others sometimes leave us with this helpless and despairing feeling of what to do. As hard as it may sound and be, there’s one way forward – start all over. Register once more for the course, take the lecturers seriously once more, take the exams once more; meet that new person and re-start to discover who he/she is; learn the new habits, new code words, new life with that person, rediscover the new patterns; learn to re-adapt; if it had to do with forgiveness, forgive and start anew, a new fresh page.
It is hard, yes. But the other option of skipping, jumping stages and simply continuing comes with immeasurable losses. When you start anew, you start afresh. You start mindful of the pitfalls in front of you, and you’re better placed to address them and come out better – victorious.
The year has begun. It’s still time to start all over. A new month comes, the days don’t tire to start anew. Our 24hours are renewed us. The dark comes, but the day comes also. As long as there is day, a today, do not be afraid to step out and start all over, and this time around, start better!
“There is no shame in beginning again, for you get a chance to build bigger and better than before”Leon Brown.